Wednesday, June 14, 2006
Distant? I THINK SO! ; 2:59 pm
Blog.. I feel that i am Drifting apart from people that I am friends with. Friends in school especially. Sometimes I feel like I am a substitute for them. For example, when my friends does not have someone to go somewhere with, they will come and find me. Turns out when we meet the whole other group of people. My friend disappears almost instantly. School partners in work also. When their appointed partners are not there, they will come find me. This is so sad.My Mother keeps me locked at home, be-back-home-by-5 rule and so on and so forth. Why is my life like that. And I can't even like my idol without being teased. DO YOU KNOW BEING TEASED IS SO IRRITATING!!! I KNOW IT OK!!! It is not nice.I don't get it how people work these days always going out to study at Mac's, Burger Kings and other fast food restaurants. Is it so NICE to be there or the point of going there is to SEE SOMEBODY??? I can't be bothered. If I don't go with them to these restaurants, they will be.. Walaw why cannot go?? or Why your mother like that one? (IT IS NOT MY FAULT THAT MY MOTHER LOVES ME TILL THIS STAGE OK!!)This is the first time in my life that I feel so down before my birthday. I think it is the stress of studying. I have not even studied anything yet and the Marathon. NOBODY is co-operating and everybody is so slack about it. Sometimes I think I joined the wrong group. they are like "why can't it be this song" or " why must it be this type of songs" or " why must go there" and some people are just sick of living-- "OOOHHHHHH!!!!! can go home already!!!!" this is when the venue has to be changed due to technical problems. Can't they think of others?? They are so inconsiderate. Thinking that they are cracking jokes and not wanting to do this or that. DO YOU THINK THAT IT IS THAT EASY??? WHY NOT YOU JUST DO IT?? HUH?? Reasons of why I choose certain songs is because of its pitches and how it sounds like when we sing together. Is not because i like the song or anything is what you all will sound like when you are on stage..ARRRGGGHHHHHHHHHH.. I'm OUT
