OK I smell like a hospital now... Haha I hate it when there's lab. is like I'll come out smelling like ethanol and microbes.. IT STINKS OK!!!! esp when Auntie ELIZABETH open the damn autoclave.. the smell from there is like.. Cereal that has been soaked in milk and left in Room Temp. for like days.. Some people think it smells like Papadum.. I was like NOOOOOO!!! It is really horrid. If you're smelling it for the first time, Haha I'll bet with you that you'll puke at the whiff of it.. Anyway.. I'm Home from Lab and Lab is suppose to end like at 6.. Haha. We finished early so, Renee and I took a cab together. So, I got home kinda quick! YEAH! saved the time to blog and do other entertainment stuff for myself before sitting down to study or Leadership this Sat. and CSAS presentation on euthanasia... I AM SOOOOO DEAD..


Well.. I'm kinda confused with your actions.
maybe I'm just thinking too much.
Somehow i hate you and yet...
Why is this happening to me.
I wanna chase it away.



Leadership presentation was suppose to be done yesterday. Guess what?!??! The first two groups took too long so not enough time for my group. I mean, I wanted to get it over and done with after CSAS this friday.. In the end, Leadership is like on tuesday.. SIAN A HALF (literally translated from Hokkien) ARGH! I am going to die or hypertension and Heart Attack... Is like my heart feels so worried and scared and sometimes I can't even breathe properly. Renee has been Sigh so loudly as loud as she hasn't breathed air for the past 5 mins. And the nervousness from her is starting to affect me... OH MY GOD!


I wished that L&C would just end.
Somehow I wanna get over and done with it.
Sometimes I thought I have ended my thoughts.
But your actions keep triggering it.
I just wish you would keep you distance.




Okok change of subject.. Well Sems are coming AGAIN. Then, it would be the end of the year and streaming into a new for the year to come..I DON'T WANNA CHANGE CLASS!!! I like the way things are right now.. Sigh. Anyway, I've got to do the class T-shirt and also order the food for the class chalet soon.. Class chalet would be on March 6 to 7!! EXCITED for that.. But I dread the exams that are coming. I end the Sems on the 27th of Feb then I'll start to work soon


In the beginning of the day,
I wish that would see you in school
But as were from the same school,
it is impossible.
We may act like normal friends,
or even friends just for the project.
But to me, it is just different...
Sometimes what i say.. is just a front
in my heart.. i think otherwise.

Talking about work, Lynette and I gonna go to the airport to see what we can get haha. I wanna work in the transit area!!!! what i hear from Cherina is that it is SOOO cool... other than she gets to see celebs who's transiting through SINGAPORE.. WOOHOOO! I wanna work in Airport and I wanna visit the T3! the new terminal that Singapore has! alot of people told me that T3 is nothing much BUT I'm still excited to go there!! I'm goona take pics for Daniel and Uncle Seng to SEEEE!!! haha. Speaking of them.. I them SO much! SIGH.. Why does London HAVE to be so DAMN BLARDY FAR from Singapore??!?!?!?!?!!?.


OK i gtg!!

I want to concentrate on my studies but
everybit that you've done, papers,props
triggers it again.
What I feel is for real or is wishful thinking of my part

Factors like age i can't get over. I don't know.


I am just confused.
Let nature take its course... I hope.

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In two days time is my first presentation in my WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE. I am so blardy freaking scared OK!


OMG i am so freaking out. I've not drafted out my speech, busy with water tech video. HAHA talking about that, the video making was SUPER fun! esp with saifuddin.. Trying to act out the damn accent which I can't recognised where it is from. HAHA. Well, I'm done with putting the Video together and also I'm gonna do another set with the blooper for keeps haha. It's kinda like the fun memories we had as a class... Well, we're like gonna change class in the coming 2.1 sem. It's been something that the girls doesn't want. Including me, I mean I'm goona miss the whole SO Much!!.. just when we're getting close and comfortable, we have to change class.. SIGH. damn this TP class arrangement thing.





Sigh¬ I totally just can't wait for the sem hols to come. then it's CLASS CHALET!!! WOOHOOO! Put your hands in the air, and wave'em like you just don't care!!! Hahhahaa OK i gtg to study! coming week has like 3 test... SIAN LAAAA




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Well.. Yesterday was the 21st of Jan 2008. SO... It means that It has been one year ever since Rain's concert in Singapore. haha and I spent $488 dollars on the ticket! haha. Well it was really worth it. Seriously from the point of view that I have. :P OK totally RANDOM





Anyway, I'm suppose to hand in the Powerpoint slides on Hard Copy and Soft Copy. And Guess what? SHIT.. OMG i just realised I forgot to being a CD to burn it into the aoft copy.... DAMN.. Anyway. I slept at like 2++ am.. Because one of my group member took ages to do his damn part... so.. He was suppose to pass it to me like at 12 yesterday/ But he said he was busy and he'll pass it to me later.. Then after that I left school at around 3 Guess what... No calls for him.. So i asked him to send me the stuff online. He said that there wasn't a need to because all he needed to do was to talk about it. I mean HOW CAN! If you talk so much, the audience maynot be able to remember what you have said before. If you have your slides, the audience would at least be able to refer to it and then understand your speech even better.. Get what I mean? I was like so damn pissed last night and was disturbing alot of people HARHAR. pple like Lynette.. Jasmine... EH... ya.. like that only.. the rest is MSN me about my nick.



SIAN.. So here i am now.. eating a sandwich and typing at the same time. Super hungry can. SIGH~ Oh and todya's lab was really fun! tested our nervous system !! with nails and Carbon power. Haha OK anyway.. shall go and study for the three test that I have tmr..... ARGH!

Did you know that Kissing can help you lose 12 Calories?!??!

Did you know that If you kiss for 1 min, you can lose 26 Calories?!??!!

Did you know that if you kiss 3 times a day with each kiss lasting 20s, it can be used for losing weight!?!??!

Did you know people who kiss more often get to live 5 more years than those who don't?!??!

Did you know that Kissing helps in Maintaining you facial skin(whitening and moisturizing(what?!)) and your immune system(having someone else's saliva helps to keep your antibodies active)?!??!



OMG.



I am so damn amused with this article from HK mag. SUPER amused! Hahaha


Anyway, I am SO tired from school today. Even if I started at like 2 :P Well, tired from Water Tech test and Leadership project. Most members not helping much, they like left immediately after tutorial and not discussing when to meet the next time.. I mean I think only Jiaming and Me are mind ful about getting this done with good grades. SIGH WHY OH WHY!!!!!




Anyway, I'm going to be home late again tmr.. because of Leadership Lec. LEADERSHIP AGAIN! ahhhh. Leadership is wrecking my life...



OK I shall go and study my CELL B test tmr. WISH ME GOOD LUCK!




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I've been addicted to this song Jesus Take The Wheel. This song is just beautiful esp. sung by Carrie Underwood.


She was driving last Friday on her way to Cincinnati
On a snow white Christmas Eve
Goin' home to see her mama & her daddy with the baby in the backseat
Fifty miles to go and she was running low on faith and gasoline
'd been a long hard year S
he had a lot on her mind and she didn't pay attention S
he was going way too fast
Before she knew it she was spinning on a thin black sheet of glass
She saw both their lives flash before her eyes
She didn't even have time to cry
She was so scared She threw her hands up in the air

[Chorus:]
Jesus, take the wheel
Take it from my hands
Cause I can't do this on my own I'm letting go
So give me one more chance
Save me from this road I'm on
Jesus, take the wheel
It was still getting colder when she made it to the shoulder
And the car came to a stop
She cried when she saw that baby in the backseat sleeping like a rock
And for the first time in a long time
She bowed her head to pray
She said, "I'm sorry for the way I've been living my life
I know I've got to change So from now on tonight"



The lyrics is so meaningful. Hmm i think I shall dedicate it to Clarrraa Lamzz! This is for you dear! LOVE YOU!
even if one friend is not there for you, there's definitely MANY MORE (including me :P).



OK, I'm trying to rush out the DAMNED Leadership Powerpoint that's due by tmr. OH MAN! Andy and Raymond hasn't given me their part their work. I AM SO DEAD. HELP ME!

I am now in the car blogging. Sigh. Well today has been really hectic. Yesterday, today and tmr is TP’s open house so there’s like human traffic everywhere and students from different school and other people coming to visit TP. Students in main/subb comm has been really RA RA these few days. Esp. Kiki HAHA.

Anyway, I did my Impromptu Speech today. Guess how it went? IT SUCKED. I gave lousy points, I couldn’t talk smoothly, there were pauses and areas where I got stuck. I bet I am going to fail. When I went up to speak, my hands were trembling like no one’s business and I nearly got a heart attack from the nervousness that I was trying to tackle the whole of today. So after that, the girls went around TP to (as usual) look for food. Soo we bought fish and chips from.. erm… I don’t know what name of the chop is it. BUT! BUT! The fish and chips were really good! I liked the fries and the fish was really tender, not like those in Design which is like so hard and thin. HMMMM.. feeling hungry now :P well my lunch was at 10.15.. and I have not eaten anything until now. Well I ate a few jellybeans that Ms Lee gave to the class and the Haribo that I brought… BESIDES that I haven’t eaten anything at all.






Soon, Clara and Pak come over to TP for the open house. Haha So I acted as the Tour Guide in TP :D it was kinda fun actually. So pak was like asking questions about the course available and also what’s around the school.. well He’s kinda interested in Business and Culinary in AS. Oh well. Just hope that he can get in J






Then I had to go to Project work. We were suppose to meet at 4 plus except for Jia Ming cos he had class till 5. HOWEVER, Andy and Raymond only came at 5 plus. Talking about Raymond, I can’t stand the point that he doesn’t really contribute to the project he does not give suggestions and also and of his opinion. Ask him to do something for the project, he come back to me with nothing. Lucky that there’s Jia Ming and Andy, if it was only me and him, I would rather do individual project. I know that I am being mean but still. I would rather do Individual then doing with him. Sigh


Well, somehow I think that computer guy is really irritating. when we are like doing our project, He's always just saying on what we should which are actually good idesa but the thing is he doesn't do the actions for it. I mean even if he says it out it is no use, it is still not on any of the presentation. It is like Big talk but No actions? Sigh- So I would like to say this Thank GOD FOR JIAMING. If not I will like of stress and Anger. :P

Anyway, so I'm back home now :P shall go and shower and have dinner and continue with the Powerpoint thing

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Well, today i thought that it was going to be a fun day and all. Cos i went to school at 8 thinking that we were going for the Bmic lecture. BUT in the end we didn't go (not surprising HUH). Cos it was just only three of us in school. So Renee, Gwen and me decided not to go as we also didn't feel like going.




ANYWAY, that's not the point. So many things are like going to happen.. Like my Impromptu Speech test is on this friday, powerpoint presentation for Leadership due by next week. As Ms Chan wants to see us do a rehersal. And also HPI test tmr. So I guess I'm going to stay in school till like 7 plus 8 or something to finish up with the powerpoint. ARGH!




OH and the MAIN POINT! I was actually organising a chalet with my girls for the class. As we are like going to change class soon. SO... I was thinking of doing something as a class. Because the last BBQ was not really successful and 90% of the class stays in Bedok/ Tampines. So yeah, this time we chose a chalet at Costa Sands (Pasir Ris) For the convenience of those who are not staying overnight. Then with all the cost added in like BBQ rental, BBQ food and the Chalet each had to pay only 10. YES 10. So i sent a sms yesterday to six people hoping that they would be able to pass the message to the rest of the class. Somehow, none of the word got around. So not alot of people brought the money. But Nadiah and the rest was really spontaneous on giving the money on the spot when we asked them. So what was left was the Guys. we asked them and they said they did not bring. SO what can I do? They have to give it tmr. Later in Bmic Lab, I reminded them to bring $10 tmr. In case they would say they never hear any news of it.



'' Hey! Class! LISTEN! Pay the $10 for the class chalet tmr ok?''


''Thank you!''



Then Kiki said,'' No need to day thank you they should pay''



JS snapped back.'' Why SHOULD we pay?''

or something like that I can't remember. But after hearing it I was pissed. The thing is, I am doing this for the class and like not for the interest of the few of us in the class. This is why it is called a CLASS CHALET. It is for the CLASS.



I don't know about the cost. Some people may think that it is rather expensive as due to their family backgrounds. I don't know. All I know is that i was BLARDY pissed During the 2nd half of the lab. Alot of thoughts were coming into my mind. Then I suddenly thought. Why should I keep organizing these kinda things for the class. They might not like it, they may find it a bother to go for the gathering, they may find it expensive for 10 dollars. These were one of the few of the thoughts that I had. I suddenly felt like dropping everything just like that. Besides, I'm like not from the student welfare or something. I'm also not the Chairperson and the Vice-Chairperson. Why should I do these things and torture myself with people's comments, opinions, thinkings and culture.




I don't know.





All I can do now is to see how it goes tmr.





I just wanna say that I've said, was what I thought and it is not directed at anything or at anyone. I also wanna say thanks to my girls: Renee, Jasmine, Zhang'e, Jessy, Gwen, Jenifer. THANK YOU ALL SO MUCH FOR TALKING TO ME AFTER BMIC! I felt better after that. I really felt I was going to explode. I didn't know that my face was so 'Black' until renee told me. But even when I wanted to smile and not look like it, I just couldn't. So i wanna say thank you all so much! I love y'all!






OUT!

Yes, yes. I am stressed again. Released my stress by removing the paint on the wall with a chisel. Well, we needed to repaint the wall so, I did it anyway. I was actually quite relieving. I felt SO much better after that.





Stressed because of Projects due and not enough time to finish them. Now have three projects and HPI quiz coming up in two days time on Hepatic and a Impromtu Speech test this friday DAMN i am scared and stressed.





OK i think i better go study.









OUT!

I've just returned from my pilate's class feeling pissed and annoyed.





Last time outside the class, I fell really badly on the way down the stairs and i had a bad bruise on the left knee and a blue black the size of a slipper, size 5. My mother was like,'' How can you be so clumsy?'' then she shaked her head. TODAY, my sister only hit her elbow at the metal box. Even if it sounded like it was painful, but the thing is the metal was hollow therefore, the loud sound. My mother was like,'' Mei! are you ok? pain or not?'' then she rubbed her elbow.. it is like WHAT THE F***ING HELL was that la... that was damn bloody biased.




Seriously, I HAVE TO SAY THIS. my parents dote on my sister more than me. maybe it is because i am older and stuff, but i listen and obey what they ask me to do even really small stuff like take water, or pass her her glasses. if she ever asked my damn sister, she wouldn't even say yes. she would like just brush off by saying,'' why me? ask JIE la!'' My sister also does not consider other people's feeling. she just says what she thinks and ignores what she has done. Example, when my Daddy ask her to go out with him she'll just say NO. I mean Daddy is not with us so often at home and he does not really spend times with us because of his frequent travelling. then she still does not wanna spend time with him. and THEY STILL DOTE ON HER THE MOST. I can't believe it.






Freaking PISSED.